Can you find yourself in organ practice?
Can you find out what kind of person you are when you're practicing?
Can you figure out what your purpose is when you're playing this instrument?
Yes, you can.
But this is stilll reactive mode of thinking.
Reactive to the situation, reactive to other people, reactive to yourself.
This way you're only acting on someone else's agenda. Good or bad. Doesn't matter. It's not yours.
A more fullfiling way of living is to be proactive.
You can create yourself in organ practice.
Become the person you want to be around with.
Become the person whom we would miss if you were gone.